When we become pregnant with a daughter we are like nested dolls. As our daughter grows in us her eggs for her potential child also form at about 20 weeks. Within our experience of pregnancy we can not feel it but we are becoming a potential ancestral grandmother as well as a new mother. So, as I was pregnant with Sara in 1988 the beginning egg that was to become Freyja was within Sara and me at the same time. Only through the most perfect of circumstances, at the right phase of the moon and position of the stars and the natural selection of egg and sperm with love and intention of Sara and Ian Freyja was conceived When I first contemplated this ancestral fact a few years ago I was struck with how this is such a profound relationship we all have with our maternal grandmothers. This is true for both the granddaughters and grandsons of a maternal grandmother. A paternal grandmother, the mother of your father is indeed your loving grandmother too but the seed that your father's fertility shared with your egg to create you was much more recently formed within him alone, not within his mother. This begs questions and curious imaginings to explore maternal lineage.
If we believe that we are created with energy and consciousness influenced by our environment is this why the creation of our selves and our cells that make us up are all so unique? There is no one person the same, there can never be. We each have so many factors that shape us. Just think of siblings born of the same parents and yet they are born into different times. How a parent will influence a child in one year will be different than how they will influence another child in another time. This is because of how they grow as people, what events have occurred in their lives that effect how they love and decisions they make. So, a memory of a mother or the growing up environment of a family by one child may be so different than another. And of course this is also influenced by the personality of each sibling. There are so many factors to consider that it is impossible to know how each stroke of the pen and paint of the brush created and molded us into the people we are.
But, it could be with this fact and understanding of energy and consciousness that when that egg within the mother within the grandmother may have been influenced by the habits, the thoughts, the events of the life of the grandmother. This is true for sons and daughters. What was happening to our maternal grandmother at the time the egg which became the basis for us may have encoded into our dna and are a unique deeply personal part of who we have become. This is the very special part of the unique bond of maternal grandmothers. So interesting isn't it? And I do not want to take anything away from the paternal grandmothers whose love for their grandchildren is as Grand and deep and committed. It is just different and the universe made it so. Freyja you are so loved by Gram Gram Leslie, Ian's mother who will also spoil you and influence you into being the woman you will become.
In 1988 when Freyja's egg was created inside her mother inside of me I was already a mother of Anna. She was 6 years old. I was a very different person then than I was when Anna was forming inside of me. Our Anna came into our lives with so many lessons to give us. I had already sat by her bed for weeks not knowing if she would live while she was on a ventilator and her medical team was working to save her very new life. I had sat in another vigil of waiting. She did survive and with the constant worry and hard work of cystic fibrosis she also brought us so much joy as parents. Anna was a powerful little girl with a unique, sassy personality. We were there to weave a nest with tools we never thought we needed to raise a child. That was who I was as a mom at the time of the beginning of Freyja's egg cell. Will this be an influence?
And Sara was carried in the womb of my mother Elayne in 1952. Elayne was already the mother of two boys. She and my father experienced a World War and Great Depression. The 1950's were a decade of hope and promise in California. All of that influenced my mother as she carried the beginnings of Sara and Anna. And I was carried by my grandmother, Cody in 1923. She and my grandfather lived in Chicago at a time of wealth and social position for them. My grandmother came from small means but married into wealth. She was taken care of but had the influences of being a outsider in a complex family run by strong men. And we can imagine so many stories back into ancestral time.
Was the energy and consciousness of our maternal grandmothers influential in the settings in our cells that became us? It begs the question and the imagination as I said. Think about it today. How did the life of your grandmother influence who you are today just because she carried your beginning? And of course with genealogy we can learn so much about so many of our ancestors. Where on the planet did they come from. What hardships and victories did they experience that made them who they were and influenced the decisions they made? We are a complex stew of all of it. All of us are so unique. We have to appreciate the struggles, the imperfections, the earthly events, the planets as they spin in the sky as all of it, all of it, is a part of who we are influencing the generations to come.
Let me introduce you to Freyja's maternal line....
Sara, Robin, Elayne, Cody, Emma
If we believe that we are created with energy and consciousness influenced by our environment is this why the creation of our selves and our cells that make us up are all so unique? There is no one person the same, there can never be. We each have so many factors that shape us. Just think of siblings born of the same parents and yet they are born into different times. How a parent will influence a child in one year will be different than how they will influence another child in another time. This is because of how they grow as people, what events have occurred in their lives that effect how they love and decisions they make. So, a memory of a mother or the growing up environment of a family by one child may be so different than another. And of course this is also influenced by the personality of each sibling. There are so many factors to consider that it is impossible to know how each stroke of the pen and paint of the brush created and molded us into the people we are.
But, it could be with this fact and understanding of energy and consciousness that when that egg within the mother within the grandmother may have been influenced by the habits, the thoughts, the events of the life of the grandmother. This is true for sons and daughters. What was happening to our maternal grandmother at the time the egg which became the basis for us may have encoded into our dna and are a unique deeply personal part of who we have become. This is the very special part of the unique bond of maternal grandmothers. So interesting isn't it? And I do not want to take anything away from the paternal grandmothers whose love for their grandchildren is as Grand and deep and committed. It is just different and the universe made it so. Freyja you are so loved by Gram Gram Leslie, Ian's mother who will also spoil you and influence you into being the woman you will become.
In 1988 when Freyja's egg was created inside her mother inside of me I was already a mother of Anna. She was 6 years old. I was a very different person then than I was when Anna was forming inside of me. Our Anna came into our lives with so many lessons to give us. I had already sat by her bed for weeks not knowing if she would live while she was on a ventilator and her medical team was working to save her very new life. I had sat in another vigil of waiting. She did survive and with the constant worry and hard work of cystic fibrosis she also brought us so much joy as parents. Anna was a powerful little girl with a unique, sassy personality. We were there to weave a nest with tools we never thought we needed to raise a child. That was who I was as a mom at the time of the beginning of Freyja's egg cell. Will this be an influence?
And Sara was carried in the womb of my mother Elayne in 1952. Elayne was already the mother of two boys. She and my father experienced a World War and Great Depression. The 1950's were a decade of hope and promise in California. All of that influenced my mother as she carried the beginnings of Sara and Anna. And I was carried by my grandmother, Cody in 1923. She and my grandfather lived in Chicago at a time of wealth and social position for them. My grandmother came from small means but married into wealth. She was taken care of but had the influences of being a outsider in a complex family run by strong men. And we can imagine so many stories back into ancestral time.
Was the energy and consciousness of our maternal grandmothers influential in the settings in our cells that became us? It begs the question and the imagination as I said. Think about it today. How did the life of your grandmother influence who you are today just because she carried your beginning? And of course with genealogy we can learn so much about so many of our ancestors. Where on the planet did they come from. What hardships and victories did they experience that made them who they were and influenced the decisions they made? We are a complex stew of all of it. All of us are so unique. We have to appreciate the struggles, the imperfections, the earthly events, the planets as they spin in the sky as all of it, all of it, is a part of who we are influencing the generations to come.
Let me introduce you to Freyja's maternal line....
Sara, Robin, Elayne, Cody, Emma
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